It never ends

I hate losing what you love the most
where heartache becomes your only host
I hate life's lessons learned
When wisdom is your only return
I shake my fist at a forever sky
and wage war on battles that end in a tie
Losing is only half the battle
getting dragged by a horse instead of sitting on the saddle
I hate screwing up
for someone else to get down
I hate being upfront
just to see a row of frowns
It's easier to feel pain when you cut yourself
Instead of from someone else, those who have your heart's wealth
They say hope should finish every song
I say hope's a dirty word, even if it is wrong
I hate being jailed away from where I belong
All because I hurt the thing that makes my heart long
Keep it alive they say
let it grow to live another day
I say what about now?
What about today?
This rhyme doesn't have a good finish
because it never ends, it never goes away