“To buy or not to buy, a miscarriage of hope”

I walk on water, a sea of broken glass and grace
Peering down for a misty reflection
Of eyes that have seen her face
Lingering in a room that still has her taste

Her scent now overgrown
A memory holding my hand but I’m still alone
Calling back a love that’s out on loan
Everyone else holding what once was my own

Maybe we were never meant to be this close
Too much of one ingredient
Makes for a lethal but lengthy dose
Cast down eyes filled with remorse

Abortion reeks of choices made
But miscarriages end life a little too late
Instead , it’s just a rescue rope frayed,
A song written but never played

Why begin at all to only begin again?
Not able to even call her a friend
Unable to rescue what’s been lost
Spring fruit now covered by the frost

It really sucks when it doesn’t make sense
And I’m sure you’re not asking for my two pence
But it’s wrong when what makes sense only dies
Slowly but surely right in front of your eyes

Some say goodbye and it goes away
Some say hello and it stays another day
Wishing this didn’t happen but also for one more day
But I know it’s a day that’s long gone, so leave me alone okay

Some ask if I would change a thing
A hushed pause, and I breathe “no”
I’m only weary of the question
And the miscarriage of hope.

Tomorrow I’ll wake and for one moment forget
It’ll be nice, I’m sure, I’ll bet
But where were you my dear forgotten thought
When in a moment I get to drown in the choices I have bought.

A miscarriage speaks of a world we’ll never know
Somebody break the hourglass so that time will finally be old.
A miscarriage speaks of a world so alive and full
A safe place – where time can’t take from us what we were supposed to hold

Miscarried

I knew a love once
With whom I almost married
Her eyes were like magic
But then our love miscarried

Was it meant to be?
I don’t like to ask that question
I just know it was right
She was a friend, and the best one

All the beautiful pieces
Fit together like rain
Pouring down this mountain
And then - down a drain

Why does it come
With such force and such beauty?
Then slip from our hands
Deep desire turning to duty

We knew it should last
Forever and then some more
But it dropped out of school
And made the sound of slamming door

We should’ve taken it home
Into it’s room nice and warm
But it bled out of our souls
And then it joined the unborn

I knew a love once
With whom I almost married
Her laughter was my sunshine
But then our love miscarried.

We threw caution to the wind
So some said our love was premature
I don’t care what they say
They were wrong and just a little too sure

Don’t expect me to believe them
Or shop at their store
Because everything they were selling
Just made me want more


I don’t know why it happened
Why my heart closed the door
I know it wanted to open
Free to dance and to explore

Was it the safest place
To hurt this much?
Why does He let us love
Only to hand us a crutch?

Now her hand has slipped from mine
Maybe on to another man
He might be good for her
Maybe a lot more sublime

All I know is that I once knew a love
With whom I almost married
She brought me back to life
But then our love miscarried

A heart deep with riches
And hurt I cannot soothe
Our love really did miscarry,
And I’ll never know what I really did lose

David wins

I saw such a man sin so great
that he filled those around with so much hate
and then his heart broke with so much shame
He called to One who broke silence with his name

I saw a woman marry a man
they hadn't kissed or caressed until they clasped hands
Friends cheering them on like game day fans
all because they had stuck to the plan

I saw a woman pregnant and in love
she held his hand and he held her white glove
Amazing Grace was their song while Eden stared past the loss
towards Heaven whose gaze always stares back past the cross

He resurrects the dead and dying cold
A simple breath to bring freedom to the sold
A gentle smile speaks a word so strong
A Shepherd's staff and arms that reach so long

Pleasing beauty, making things beautiful
All things received and nothing too old
Whatever you have, He'll take and then He'll give
Whatever you break, he'll re-make for a gift
Whatever you fake, he'll shake like a sieve
Whenever you scream, He'll whisper "I still live."

It never ends

I hate losing what you love the most
where heartache becomes your only host
I hate life's lessons learned
When wisdom is your only return
I shake my fist at a forever sky
and wage war on battles that end in a tie
Losing is only half the battle
getting dragged by a horse instead of sitting on the saddle
I hate screwing up
for someone else to get down
I hate being upfront
just to see a row of frowns
It's easier to feel pain when you cut yourself
Instead of from someone else, those who have your heart's wealth
They say hope should finish every song
I say hope's a dirty word, even if it is wrong
I hate being jailed away from where I belong
All because I hurt the thing that makes my heart long
Keep it alive they say
let it grow to live another day
I say what about now?
What about today?
This rhyme doesn't have a good finish
because it never ends, it never goes away

"We must love one another or die."
-W. H. Auden