Faith, Science and Agnosticism

In a discussion on Facebook I recently wrote this in response to the question about what our favorite presuppositions are. My friend, Joe said,

"So, I have to identify my most basic presuppostion that governs my worldview...I think its this: "An absolutely true reality exists and is objectively knowable". What's your favorite presupposition?"


One of my responses was,

"Joe - is it possible to maintain the first half of your presupposition and accept the second half in faith and ongoing discovery. There is a view I hold to in that regard called Confessional Realism. It is much like Critical Realism which is a view held by N.T. Wright, Paul Hiebert among others. Basically, the world does make sense, spirituality... See more, science, physics, emotions, etc... all line up and have always lined up without question but based upon our inabilities, infantilities and finitude, we can't see how that works as of yet. The responses vary from the escape into fundamentalist faith or to sola science or agreeable agnosticism. The choice that I've made thus far is Confessional Realism. This basically posits that the world functions as a whole and we are the ones that dissect it and then take positions against each other based upon our view of what is more important to us and how we integrate that arena of thought or discipline in our identity. This is not how God planned us to form our identity - by what the reality of the world is but at the same time we can discover some of his reality through the natural world. Either way, the integrated network of everything is available to us and as Christians we are the most apt to discover those connections but are unable because it might require learning something from someone else that would loosen our faith fidelity. Regardless, all disciplines have a connection to all other disciplines. If we want it to work like that, then we are called to discover and journey towards those connections and not to stop on and build a moat around our first discoveries. Realism posits that there is much more to discover. Given the categories that Christians can have that non-Christians don't have and vice versa, we are holding each other back. The difference is that our side requires a bit more of direct submission to a Person rather than an idea. That is the issue - spiritual knowledge (I Cor. 3) has more to do with categories of belief that unbelievers won't accept because to do so would require submission to the Persons of the Trinity. not an easy thing to do on a relational level unless you have been reached by the Holy Spirit.

It seems it would be best to accept the three different positions - fidel faith, sola science and agreeable agnosticism. In one way we accept the reality of the world, God and his sovereignty through faith while at the same time embracing the freedom and joy of scientific discovery and how that continues to coincide with our discoveries of God. This is going on while at the same time humbly believing through a lens of agnosticism that holds our own contextual situatedness in check. There have to be check and balances for each position and each one does well to listen to the other so we don't end up burning people for believing that the the universe is heliocentric or put people in jail for having anti-government hymn sings or revile those who actually want to take a stand instead of maintaining a neutral and ultimately unjust lifestyle. I wonder what your thoughts would be."

I do wonder!

Eating for Two

I have a friend who experienced really bad "winds" for awhile in his adult life. He didn't really think it was a problem (as in it shouldn't have happened as much as it did) until he got married. His and his wife decided to go on a detox diet and cut everything out of their diet that causes abnormal "winds." They began slowly adding the items to their daily diet that had been removed and discovered that it was actually the dairy products that were causing the problems. All his life my friend had loved dairy and had eaten it without concern and never thought it would be connected to his "winds." What was most interesting to me was the process that they had to do in order to first cleanse themselves and then move to rebuild their diet to recognize what was harming them. I guess he would have hoped it was something that he was impartial towards or at the least an expensive and largely unavailable item that he wouldn't really need anyways (I'm sure he was hoping for cheap beer to come up as the culprit, leaving no choice but to buy the good stuff), but alas, it was the dairy one of his favorites. Now dairy is not bad for others and in fact it is very good, especially for those who are developing physically. Although some cultures can handle a lot less than others.

Lately, I have been "detoxing" from Christianity. Not necessarily historic Christianity but our cultural, Western, Evangelical, church culture Christianity. I have cut back the diet (i.e. Quiet time, church, Christian music and radio, churchianity, Christianese, doctrines handed to me sealed in earth destroying plastic and made somewhere else or in someone else's context, etc...). I have trimmed my portions. Many may believe me to be back-sliding while others will just dismiss it as a phase. I feel like it is more what my friend was doing. At one time, dairy was very important for his development, but eventually when he became an adult, it became toxic for his body to ingest as much or more as he had always eaten. In many ways, the structures, systems, patterns of discipleship and general ethos of the "general" culture of Christianity can only sustain a certain segment of those on their faith journey while to others it will become toxic at some point and actually begin to cause illness rather than growth.

Paul speak about this in his letters as well as the author of Hebrews in the New Testament. There is a need to move on from milk to solid food. What the text doesn't mention (though not out of negligence) is that the milk, if it is maintained in the diet, can actually be harmful and toxic to the over all health and well-being of the individual as they continue to grow. This isn't true for all people but lactose intolerance is enough of an issue globally that it could be recognized. This is not the point I'm hoping to draw as much as it illustrates that those patterns which at one point were extremely necessary and beneficial to us in our spiritual maturing process have a shelf life and need to mature into different patterns that match our growth patterns, as individuals, as communities, and as the church universal as we mature towards the consummation of all things.

To identify the problem I have to at some level critique different traditions. I don't want to focus on one tradition in this post but rather recognize the frailty of some of the evangelical impulses for faith development.

"Quiet time" - spending an hour a day with God. What kind of formative function does that play in the life of a 15 year old versus a 50 year old?

"Emotional, introspective worship music" - how does that give opportunity for expression for a 15 year old versus a 50 year old?

"Christian Sub-Culture" - how does that inform an 15 year old versus a 50 year old about the need to engage culture in the wider world.

The list goes on and on. What we have been told to do many times is right for someone else but not for us. This is not because we're simply postmoderns but because the dismissal of blaming this complex issue on an epistemology like postmodernity totally misses the emotional and developmental components of how people develop. It is literally a cop out. On issues of morality, there are some things that would be immoral for a 15 year old to engage in and not a 50 year old - i.e. drinking alcohol or sexual intimacy. There is a context for these and morality is situational for certain things but of course not for all.

I'm frustrated by the act of normalizing a function of maturity and then codifying its practice as normative for all Christians everywhere at all times. It has been healthy and eye-opening not to go to church as well as it has been to go to church. It has been refreshing to not have a "quiet time" but to engage God in one's own time that is more relationally based rather than militaristic. Why is the discipline needed - it is of course for the our own benefit but discipline and codification and regiments given by others for our benefit also need the space to be discontinued if they are not fit for the individual or community practicing them. Some spiritual practices or experiences given to us are actually fluff and only offer short term pay offs but long term frustration. I could eat pizza every day and drink a gallon of milk a day when I was 15, but if I did that now - whoa - the repercussions would be enormous.

Discernment, maturity and spiritual growth lead us to realize that there are few things we can understand comprehensively but there are many aspects to our growth that we have to be ready for that we have not encountered yet. These new plateaus of learning which we have never seen before may require some things of us that weren't required before. At the same time they may require us to shed some things that we have held dear to us and have given us much comfort, security and legitimate transformational experiences. This of course doesn't mean that we never do what was done before but it does mean changing our diet for the better. What we once loved may now be hurting us. We may have to stop drinking milk.

A rant againt Convention

Lord deliver me
from a life of balance

A Presumptuous idle
an act of violence

Let me honor the land
that feeds me

And only bite it if
it tries to squeeze me

-Nathan

To cruise or not to cruise part 1

Recently, my wife and I went on a 4 day cruise with Royal Caribbean Cruise lines. We had no idea what it was going to be like and as we boarded the ship and took our first look at the lunch menu - we knew we were in for a treat. At that moment, we both thought out loud, "wow - this would be so fun to share with some really good friends or our families." I guess that was the honeymoon because as the weekend went on, there were more and more aspects that began to bother me. Don't get me wrong - we enjoyed ourselves a lot. The frustrations came as each day unveiled the personality of cruising. More on this later!

Creation is our Domain, not humanity, time or Deity

“Scratch any of us and you will find we are witch doctors underneath.”

- Dr. Paul Hiebert.


The temptation for man is to control that which we are to submit to, cooperate with, regenerate, mentor and love.

We have the responsibility,

1. to have authority over Creation in order to steward Creation,
2. to cooperate with, mutually submit to, regenerate, mentor and love humanity,
3. to cooperate with and submit to time and
4. to submit to, cooperate with, give worship to and love the Trinity.

This is the order of how worship towards God is to be ordered. We worship Him based upon responsibility, authority, submission, love and cooperation.

Fearful manipulation, bitter jealousy, selfish ambition and hateful anger are the destroyers of this order.

Cain and Abel experienced this dynamic - the first murder was a result of the above list.

The first rebellion was acted out in the context of sinlessness, yet with self-deceit. Our role today knows no such context. Our context knows only sin and selfishness therefore, to sin is natural and to do so requires that we accept that our starting point with worship, responsibility, submission, love, authority and cooperation is to do the exact opposite. Therefore ordering our worship to God according to these categories will allow the alignment of our holistically rebellious hearts back towards what is true, life-giving and founded in Eden though oriented towards the New Creation.

under the sun

Some say there is nothing new under the sun,

New
Anew
Renew.

How do we deal with the semantics/meanings of these words if there is nothing new. Wouldn't that cause these words to be rendered meaningless. Or is it that whatever is "new" can only be new to my senses, from my situatedness, from my perspective in its inherent limited spector.

I have to believe that the word "new" has a rendering that cannot be contained or exhausted by our intuition, knowledge, educational investments, experience, etc... Nothing is new to God as we understand him, but our ability to apprehend knowledge and awareness of what is true or real will never be exhausted - which requires that our experience of truth has to be new - some of it granted will have been discovered by others long before us but there has to be some room for things that have never been discovered before by human beings - this can be historically substantiated over and over.

For me the approach needs to come through three terms that use the root of "new" in English. This is not an exhaustive explanation conceptually and the limitations of English are always present but here goes...

New - of recent origin, production, purchase, etc.; having but lately come or been brought into being: We use this term to speak of brand new, unusual, fresh or recent aspects of description.

Anew - in a new form or manner: This is where things, ideas, experiences, explanations, etc... are re-discovered in a given context that had not previously had the aspect spoken of in the current context. We can then re-discover anew in a way that brings a new awareness.

Renew - to be restored to a former state; become new or as if new again: this term best represents the process of things becoming new. As there are very few brand new and completely fresh ideas or sources of knowledge, most of our understanding that is new is really a renewed understanding of things that already exist. Many times our new discoveries depend upon the conceptual framework that already exists in our hearts, minds and actions. We discover new things through what we already understand and know generally. Those things may have already been discovered, but there has to be somethings that are unique and new apart from discoveries that are already present in the up-to-date general human consciousness. This can point to the assurance that to God - nothing is new under sun from his perspective but to us, many things will be new under the sun and some of them will be brand new but not necessarily independently new from our former frameworks.

Newness is life - Mercy is new every morning - there is new life - new things will be done and the things of old will be forgotten.

There are many things new under the sun.

proportional empowerment and dis-empowerment

I believe there is a direct proportion of dis-empowerment from the clergy to the empowerment of the laity in churches and faith communities these days. The opposite is also true it seems. It would seem that this is why Christ displayed a model that made him as equal to those he was discipling as was divinely possible. This doesn't mean that he was trying to exact himself in human form so as to keep his divinity undetected. It is more that he was unassuming in his "leadership" ability and didn't extend himself on his own account other than through miracles and his declared relationship to the Father. He had no problem displaying obvious authority over the elements (walking on water, stilling the storm), angels (fallen or not), the law (Sabbath), the body and sickness (healings and raising from the dead) and over himself (self control, sinlessness). In doing so he modeled for us the authority that he was to pass on to us. We have that authority, though imperfectly and not as fully expressed as he did, but nonetheless, the design is that we would carry the same authority throughout Creation according to our relationship with him over his creation as stewards and co-creators and members of his redemption team.

He could have become a Scribe with his knowledge of the Law and he could have become famous with his ability to heal and do miracles of all sorts but he hid that. What is interesting is that he was consistently intentional about withholding his divine attributes in order to be fully human - not fully human in the way that we are fully human but fully human in the way that we are to become fully human. The potential to be fully human is present within us but can only be unleashed and fully expressed in a living relationship with Christ. The fullness of that expression can then only be experienced in the new creation - but that which is necessarily possible within us is also essentially us now in our identity (positional justification/already not yet).

One can track with this line of thinking by accepting that Christ's life is just as important as his death and resurrection because in it, that is his life - redemption was also present. Not necessarily redemption that he accomplished through the cross, but the redemption principles that we would learn from his life and then carry into our life - the life and action of his body, the church. This would be our modus operandi as his community until he would return.










He was constantly giving away power, prestige and opportunities to be praised. He either gave them to his disciples, to his Father or he would tell the onlookers to not speak a word of what he had done. In our time, he has given them to the church. So as the life of Christ, as 100% human, is the model that we are called to live under, we then have the ability and potential for everything that he accomplished except for substitutionary atonement.

One question is, is it possible for human beings to calm a storm? Was Christ doing that to nature or was he rebuking an invisible enemy. Some believe it is possible that he was actually rebuking the enemy who was causing the storm, otherwise a rebuke wouldn't have been needed. In other circumstances where natural phenomena occurs in a supernatural way, there is no need for a rebuke. A rebuke is language generally reserved for the enemy of our souls not for nature. It is obvious in the text that the disciples thought he was addressing nature in his remark but the facts remain and it is still possible that he was addressing evil spirits who were also able to cause the conditions that they were in.

Either way, the idea that Christ gave away power through his example and the way in which he discipled, lived, taught, healed, etc... is seemingly strong. His efforts were to "em-power" the disciples. As we see with Christ and the Pharisees, the message given by Christ of the New Covenant arriving and his identity as the Messiah who had brought it, was definitely not welcome. The disciples already doubted their purpose, ability and place in Jewish society as it pertained to their backgrounds (Christ never chose a Pharisee, Saducee or Essene to join him - only misfits, socially uneducated and unacceptable, non-conformists, outcasts and compromisers). It would follow that they would struggle to also embrace their God given identity as heralds of "the" New Covenant and the message of "the" Messiah who had come and gone. Not an easy task in their environment and historical setting. His constant affirmation of them from the first time he chose them to the final commission he gave them at his ascension and every affirmation in-between shows how intentional he was about always giving away power and purpose, affirmation and authority - even to those who seemed least likely to manage it well. But over time they got it and became 12 of the most unstoppable characters in the history of the church.

Therefore through Christ's example and life we can say that, "there is a direct proportion of dis-empowerment from the clergy to the empowerment of the laity in churches and faith communities in the establishment and growth of those communities and the church as a whole universal. There is also a proportionate movement of empowerment of the clergy with a resulting dis-empowerment of the laity in the opposite direction that is also true."










Christ's example was not only through humility in the washing of the disciples' feet but also in power and authority in the elevation of their apostolic identity and purpose in spreading the "gospel" globally, regionally and locally. If the responsibility in the Great Commission is as pervasive as it is reported to be in Matthew 28, then the authority to accomplish that great commission has to match the responsibility and any good parent, leader, manager or trainer will tell you and also model for you that responsibility and authority are better caught rather than just taught. Ultimately, to do what Christ commissioned us to do requires a continual affirmation and em-powerment of regular people being equipped and empowered to accomplish irregular tasks - tasks that even Christ said would be greater than his.

Get Rich or Die Tryin'?

Lately I've been learning a lesson - to sow peace is wise because over the long haul, it reaps a harvest of righteousness which seems to be the fruit of what we know as a redemptive heritage that builds the Kingdom over time.

I really like to see results from my visions, dreams and actions sooner that they are designed to be achieved. By pushing forward with selfish ambition because of jealousy and envy that leads to impatience, I forego the plan of God for my life and for the way that my life is to minister and serve the lives I'm connected to directly or indirectly. The way we live is designed to outlast our actual life. That "way" can either be redemptive, creative, life-giving and beautiful or it can be destructive, utilitarian, impatient and life-diminishing.

If I constantly keep in my heart and head and hands the practice of sowing peace in all my situations of life, easy, difficult or indifferent, I will over time see a harvest of shalom and fullness. This will have to cost me something and at times things and valued treasures that are dear to me, but the outcome will be worth it all. In one sense then, the concept of living our lives based on results can actually be good if those results are not according to our terms, time-frame or quantitative/qualitative controls. If we were to live for results that outlived us that gave life, brought light to darkness, truth to deception and redemption to hopelessness, then it would be ethical to live according to the results. The paremeters for measuring those results obviously would be much different than our current culture tells us. The interesting thing is that many times, the culture shaping corpus's that we look to and are fed by - the media, strong personalities, itching ear teachers, economic systems of control and wealth, religious platforms, political ideals and the like - many times their intentions and preached messages are actually redemptive but their hearts and the methods, structures and lived ethics that they actually employ don't match up. I am the same in my personal life.

I want what's best for my family, me and the people that God has given me to care for and be cared for by but there is a disconnect between what I do each day and what I "think" and "say" to establish my sense of ethical responsibility and an ensuing lifestyle to match.

James says, "...And a harvest of righteousness is sown in peace by those who make peace."

In the Message, it says it like this, "You can develop a healthy, robust community that lives right with God and enjoy its results only if you do the hard work of getting along withe each other, treating each other with dignity and honor."

I have learned that in spite of my desire to want what's right, I try to achieve it combatively at times when an attitude of patience and peace-making is a better path. My personality doesn't shy away from conflict and at times looks for it to solve problems. This can be good when stuff needs to come to the surface that has been simmering below the surface for too long but many things that simmmer just need to have the burner shut off. That is not natural to my consciousness and I have seen that no matter what the issue is - large or small, that i tend to be ready to resolve most problems head on in full force, when many issues are better left alone. Sowing peace in my life looks a lot like avoiding the first punch at a problem and seeking the shalom of a community rather than being the first one in line to critique, condemn, catalyze the issue or conflate an issue pasts its necessary limits. I'm very judicial at times and as a result have little room for grace and patience.

The flip side is that there are some who do everything they can to avoid conflict and brush issues under the carpet or have many simmering pots full of issues that have rarely been dealt with which makes for a lot of simmering pots and a lot of collective heat, ready to be let off at an untimely place and in an untimely manner.

I guess both types of people struggle to sow peace. My type wants to deal directly and scare up the issue asap - to "nip it in the bud" as they say whereas the other side doesn't nip anything in the bud and weeds begin to take over the life of the garden. Either way, both approaches do not seek to sow peace. Sometimes peace being sown means letting an issue go and giving grace while at other times it means letting an issue come to the surface and facing it with courage. These are difficult patterns of community life and probably the most difficult over time. Though in time, James tells us that if we continually (not perfectly) sow peace, then a harvest of right relationships and many other right things will result.

There's always space for some weeds in the garden yet, if there are two many weeds then it is no longer a garden.




Jesus told them another parable: "The kingdom of heaven is like a man who sowed good seed in his field. But while everyone was sleeping, his enemy came and sowed weeds among the wheat, and went away. When the wheat sprouted and formed heads, then the weeds also appeared.

"The owner's servants came to him and said, 'Sir, didn't you sow good seed in your field? Where then did the weeds come from?'

" 'An enemy did this,' he replied.
"The servants asked him, 'Do you want us to go and pull them up?'

" 'No,' he answered, 'because while you are pulling the weeds, you may root up the wheat with them. Let both grow together until the harvest. At that time I will tell the harvesters: First collect the weeds and tie them in bundles to be burned; then gather the wheat and bring it into my barn.' " (Matt. 13:24-30)


This parable doesn't seem to line up exactly with what I'm learning yet the characteristics of taking on a problem that has come up seem to be very similar with the conclusion that James was writing with in his third chapter.

James notes,

"Real wisdom, God's wisdom, begins with a holy life and is characterized by getting along with others. It is gentle and reasonable, overflowing with mercy and blessings, not hot one day and cold the next, not two-faced. You can develop a healthy, robust community that lives right with God and enjoy its results only if you do the hard work of getting along with each other, treating each other with dignity and honor."

So it looks like we always come back to wisdom. Wisdom seems to always say something more and deeper and beyond our first thoughts and feelings in most situations. I know that I'm not afraid of conflict and conflict resolution but the path that I "viscerally" or "naturally" take to get there many times works against the very resolution that I'm seeking. It's more painful to wait, listen seek the path of wisdom in dealing with conflict which may or may not require what one feels or sense first. Whatever I feel, think or sense is the right thing to do, I have begun to ask myself two questions,

"Am I sowing seeds of peace?"

"What would wisdom do?"

I like asking what would wisdom do instead of what Jesus would do? I find it difficult to critique my own sense of ethics and whether I'm able to be true to the truth when I'm asking what Jesus would do. Many, including myself, find it easier to cast Jesus in our own image and refer to the aspects of his actions and personality that fit with our actions and personalities - we then can easily ask - WWJD?

I barely know the guy and yet I've been with him for years. Not knowing him well enough and the frustration with not knowing what he would actually do in a given situation drives me to an impatient appraisal of who I think he is. I then speak of him doing what I would really do - and I can do all of this without even thinking about it. Then I parade Jesus' name and reputation around to other people to show them why I'm right and ethical in my actions.

WWJD is designed to hurt us and discomfort us (though at times it can comfort) more than to confirm our imposed personal ethics or to allay our fears of being wrong. So I find it more realistic and safer to ask, what would wisdom do. This doesn't circumvent Christ but allows us to see him in the context of wisdom, as he is our wisdom from God according to Scripture. I think we can all freely admit we need a lot of growth in wisdom. If Christ is our wisdom then he retains the ability to lead us to wisdom and to embody wisdom and its implications for difficult decisions. In this we do not look past Christ to Wisdom but look to wisdom as a paradigm through which Christ lived ethically and obediently to the Father.

Consistently asking these questions and then doing the hard work of listening to the answers and not just asking the questions, has a promise - a harvest of right relationships and a bunch of other... right things.

-Nathan Smith (inspiration from humiliation)

Beauty

"Before the beautiful—no, not really before but within the beautiful—the whole person quivers. He not only 'finds' the beautiful moving; rather, he experiences himself as being moved and possessed by it."

-Hans Urs von Balthasar

“To buy or not to buy, a miscarriage of hope”

I walk on water, a sea of broken glass and grace
Peering down for a misty reflection
Of eyes that have seen her face
Lingering in a room that still has her taste

Her scent now overgrown
A memory holding my hand but I’m still alone
Calling back a love that’s out on loan
Everyone else holding what once was my own

Maybe we were never meant to be this close
Too much of one ingredient
Makes for a lethal but lengthy dose
Cast down eyes filled with remorse

Abortion reeks of choices made
But miscarriages end life a little too late
Instead , it’s just a rescue rope frayed,
A song written but never played

Why begin at all to only begin again?
Not able to even call her a friend
Unable to rescue what’s been lost
Spring fruit now covered by the frost

It really sucks when it doesn’t make sense
And I’m sure you’re not asking for my two pence
But it’s wrong when what makes sense only dies
Slowly but surely right in front of your eyes

Some say goodbye and it goes away
Some say hello and it stays another day
Wishing this didn’t happen but also for one more day
But I know it’s a day that’s long gone, so leave me alone okay

Some ask if I would change a thing
A hushed pause, and I breathe “no”
I’m only weary of the question
And the miscarriage of hope.

Tomorrow I’ll wake and for one moment forget
It’ll be nice, I’m sure, I’ll bet
But where were you my dear forgotten thought
When in a moment I get to drown in the choices I have bought.

A miscarriage speaks of a world we’ll never know
Somebody break the hourglass so that time will finally be old.
A miscarriage speaks of a world so alive and full
A safe place – where time can’t take from us what we were supposed to hold

Miscarried

I knew a love once
With whom I almost married
Her eyes were like magic
But then our love miscarried

Was it meant to be?
I don’t like to ask that question
I just know it was right
She was a friend, and the best one

All the beautiful pieces
Fit together like rain
Pouring down this mountain
And then - down a drain

Why does it come
With such force and such beauty?
Then slip from our hands
Deep desire turning to duty

We knew it should last
Forever and then some more
But it dropped out of school
And made the sound of slamming door

We should’ve taken it home
Into it’s room nice and warm
But it bled out of our souls
And then it joined the unborn

I knew a love once
With whom I almost married
Her laughter was my sunshine
But then our love miscarried.

We threw caution to the wind
So some said our love was premature
I don’t care what they say
They were wrong and just a little too sure

Don’t expect me to believe them
Or shop at their store
Because everything they were selling
Just made me want more


I don’t know why it happened
Why my heart closed the door
I know it wanted to open
Free to dance and to explore

Was it the safest place
To hurt this much?
Why does He let us love
Only to hand us a crutch?

Now her hand has slipped from mine
Maybe on to another man
He might be good for her
Maybe a lot more sublime

All I know is that I once knew a love
With whom I almost married
She brought me back to life
But then our love miscarried

A heart deep with riches
And hurt I cannot soothe
Our love really did miscarry,
And I’ll never know what I really did lose

David wins

I saw such a man sin so great
that he filled those around with so much hate
and then his heart broke with so much shame
He called to One who broke silence with his name

I saw a woman marry a man
they hadn't kissed or caressed until they clasped hands
Friends cheering them on like game day fans
all because they had stuck to the plan

I saw a woman pregnant and in love
she held his hand and he held her white glove
Amazing Grace was their song while Eden stared past the loss
towards Heaven whose gaze always stares back past the cross

He resurrects the dead and dying cold
A simple breath to bring freedom to the sold
A gentle smile speaks a word so strong
A Shepherd's staff and arms that reach so long

Pleasing beauty, making things beautiful
All things received and nothing too old
Whatever you have, He'll take and then He'll give
Whatever you break, he'll re-make for a gift
Whatever you fake, he'll shake like a sieve
Whenever you scream, He'll whisper "I still live."

It never ends

I hate losing what you love the most
where heartache becomes your only host
I hate life's lessons learned
When wisdom is your only return
I shake my fist at a forever sky
and wage war on battles that end in a tie
Losing is only half the battle
getting dragged by a horse instead of sitting on the saddle
I hate screwing up
for someone else to get down
I hate being upfront
just to see a row of frowns
It's easier to feel pain when you cut yourself
Instead of from someone else, those who have your heart's wealth
They say hope should finish every song
I say hope's a dirty word, even if it is wrong
I hate being jailed away from where I belong
All because I hurt the thing that makes my heart long
Keep it alive they say
let it grow to live another day
I say what about now?
What about today?
This rhyme doesn't have a good finish
because it never ends, it never goes away

"We must love one another or die."
-W. H. Auden

How does the Holy Spirit empower really?

Steve Chalke talks about how that whenever two people love one another, there is always one party who loves more than the other and that the one who loves less (if you can quantify love) actually ends up having more power than the one who loves more. By loving deeply and kindly and sacrificially you may put the person that you love in a position to have more power than you do.

I was thinking about this and wholeheartedly agree but thought to myself that the person who loves more still needs to have power to accomplish what we've been given to do on the planet and therefore where does that power come from. If you love less, you don't have power but the power for the person who gives up the power still needs a source of strength and influence instead of just being a doormat or a scapegoat. This is where the Holy Spirit comes in and it seems can only come in when we are weak and powerless because we have given up our rights to have power through loving those with whom we don't see a reciprocation of love. The lack of power as a result of love enables the Holy Spirit to rush in and fill the void and empower us.

If we seek power from others by not being vulnerable, not giving in and not loving then the power we have is legitimate power but it is our own and we got it through sin and selfishness. We still have strength and power to hand out but the use of it is actually to give it up in order to love others at times and therefore its use isn't only a direct show of power but also the ability to empty oneself of the power that we have a right to use to protect ourselves thereby allowing the Holy Spirit to move in through our own emptying in. The Holy Spirit couldn't come to earth until Christ left - when his presence and power left the earth - the Spirit came and empowered the disciples for what - to love through preaching, teaching, sacrificing, dying, etc... but not through violence.

John Ortberg's seven political sins

This is an article that I found out about on a friend's facebook notes and went and looked up on this page,

http://blog.christianitytoday.com/outofur/archives/2008/11/john_ortbergs_l.html



John Ortberg's Lessons from the Election

The seven deadly sins of evangelicals in politics.

by John Ortberg

My son has a bumper sticker on his car that reads: “I poke badgers with spoons.” Its significance is not self-evident to everybody who reads it, so let me tell you the story.

It comes from a British stand-up named Eddie Izzard. Eddie grew up in the church, and heard early on about the doctrine of original sin, but was a little fuzzy on the concept. He assumed that it meant that priests get tired of hearing the same old boring confessions time after time—greed, lust, gluttony, and lying to the tax man. Eddie thought the priests wanted to hear some truly original sins.

So he came up with something he figured no one had ever confessed before: “I poke badgers with spoons.” My wife thought it was so funny that she had it printed on a bumper sticker and placed it on my son’s car. Oddly enough, he sometimes fails to appreciate that his parents are two of the funniest people in the world. But he wanted the car. So he gets the sticker that goes with it.

Debates have raged for centuries now over the phrase “original sin,” which of course doesn’t actually show up in the Bible. Augustine argued that there is a fundamental flaw, a bentness, that gets passed on to every human being before they are even born. (He believed it was intrinsic to the sex act, which may be part of why he never had a little Augustine, Jr.--at least not legitimately.) The classic counter-argument was raised by Pelagius, who claimed that each human being was a blank slate, a morally neutral free agent who had a clean shot at maintaining perfect innocence. Pelagius clearly never had children.

The church came down, with a few caveats, on the side of Augustine and not Pelagius. But Eddie Izzard gets a shout out now and then. The Vatican recently published a list of sins (such as environmental transgressions) which, if not completely original, at least give an updated twist to the old seven deadlies.

Which brings me to the election...

I am a political junkie. During a presidential campaign, I will often buy a couple of newspapers a day just to keep up. But it strikes me that presidential campaigns can often bring out the worst as well as the best in us.So I want to propose the “Seven Deadly Sins of Evangelicals and Politics.” You may have a few of your own to add. But the spirit of such lists in the past was not to add to our store of information but to contrition. So feel free to confess while you read.

Messianism. The sin of believing that a merely human person or system can usher in the eschaton. This is often tipped off by phrases like: “The most important election of our lifetime” (which one wasn’t?); or “God’s man for the hour.”

Selective Scripturization. The sin of using Scripture to reinforce whatever attitude toward the president you feel like holding, while shellacking it with a thin spiritual veneer. If the candidate you like holds office, you consistently point people toward Romans 13: “Everyone must submit himself to the governing authorities, for there is no authority except that which God has established.” If your candidate lost, you consistently point people to Acts 4:10 where Peter and John say to the Sanhedrin: “Judge for yourselves whether it is right in God’s sight to obey you rather than God.” It’s just lucky for us the Bible is such a big book.

Easy Believism. This is the sin of believing the worst about a candidate you disagree with, because when you want them to lose you actually want to believe bad things about them. “Love is patient, love is kind,” Paul said. “Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices in the truth.” But in Paul’s day nobody ran for Caesar. There was no talk radio.

Episodism. The sin of being engaged in civic life only on a random basis. The real issues never go away, but we’re tempted to give them our attention only when the news about them is controversial, or simplistic, or emotionally charged. Sustained attention to vital but unsexy issues is not our strong suit.

Alarmism. A friend of mine used to work for an organization that claimed both Christian identity and a particular political orientation. They actually liked it when a president was elected of the opposite persuasion, because it meant they could raise a lot more money. It is in their financial interests to convince their constituents that the president is less sane than Jack Nicholson in The Shining. Alarmists on both sides of the spectrum make it sound like we’re electing a Bogeyman-in-Chief every four years. I sometimes think we should move the election up a few days to October 31.

One Issue-ism. Justifying our intolerance of complexity and nuance by collapsing a decision into a simplistic and superficial framework.

Pride. I couldn’t think of a snappy title for this one. But politics, after all, is largely about power. And power goes to the core of our issues of control and narcissism and need to be right and tendency to divide the human race into "us" vs. "them."

What might happen if the world were to see those of us who claim to be the church vote, and speak, and campaign, and respond to the results in a humble and repentant spirit?

John Ortberg is editor-at-large of Leadership and pastor of Menlo Park Presbyterian Church in Menlo Park, California. He writes a monthly column on our sister site www.LeadershipJournal.net.

Who's in charge?

Our job is to provide a safe environment for people to encounter Christ through the Scriptures , community, service and solidarity and to guard from inaccurate teaching but also the lack of teaching the full message of the Gospel so that people in the Church wouldn’t lead others people to self-destruction and selfishness. That doesn’t mean that we can’t lead people to know themselves, achieve self-realization and to become the themselves more and more – the person God created them to be. Instead our tradition and the presiding paradigm teaches that we are to deny self as both our identity and flesh rather than as the just the flesh - the selfish destructive person inside of us who we really aren’t as the Scripture has shown us in Romans 7.

Learning from others is something our tradition does poorly because we are too triumphalistic and think we don’t need to learn from other faiths or traditions because we’re on the right side of it all to begin with. I think this is one of the most arrogant and detrimental attitudes of our tradition and believe it to be very sinful and destructive, un-Biblical and un-Christ like. There are many reasons for that from my understanding. One is that every great religious idea that we found our tradition on especially and the great doctrines of our faith in Scripture – they’ve all been borrowed from other religions and philosophies and re-calibrated for our own use and understanding. We aren’t as original as we think we are.

How does this effect my view of Scripture? For myself Scripture is not truth – God is, Jesus is. Christ said it Himself - way/truth/life is a person, not a book or propostion and Scripture is an accommodation for us to reveal that truth - it is not in and of itself a crystallized truth - it is a truth giver, communicator and norm for truth, but it is not truth. It isn't a necessity for God to reveal Himself to us, it's his choice and He chooses to do so through different means - Scripture, experience, community, nature, sense and conviction, and these are all accommodations not necessities that God provides for us. God doesn’t have to accommodate anyone but He chooses to most of the time because of his love and as a result of the flip side of this conversation, it is possible that many can encounter Christ without Scripture and still know truth, live truth, preach truth, etc… The Bible doesn't have handcuffs on truth, it is just the best way to encounter it in its fullness and freedom but it doesn't at the same time lock all of humanity out from accessing "truth" if they don't have the Bible or have never read it.

Anniversary

I just realized that I have been writing on this blog for 3 years this month. The first post was on the 25th of November just 3 days away. I wrote about my brother, Lonnie, he's a hero of mine and he's given me another nephew to love on. A lot has changed since that post. A lot can happen in three years. A lot. Wow! Blessings to all the bloggers.

Gibran, Dylan and Armstrong - Do we really belive this?

I hear babies cry...... I watch them grow
Theyll learn much more.....than Ill never know
And I think to myself .....what a wonderful world


The colors of a rainbow.....so pretty ..in the sky
Are there on the faces.....of people ..going by
I see friends shaking hands.....sayin.. how do you do
Theyre really sayin...*spoken*(I ....love....you).

I hear babies cry...... I watch them grow
*spoken*(you know their gonna learn
A whole lot more than Ill never know)
And I think to myself .....what a wonderful world
Yes I think to myself .......what a wonderful world.

- Louis Armstrong



Come gather 'round people
Wherever you roam
And admit that the waters
Around you have grown
And accept it that soon
You'll be drenched to the bone.
If your time to you
Is worth savin'
Then you better start swimmin'
Or you'll sink like a stone
For the times they are a-changin'.

Come writers and critics
Who prophesize with your pen
And keep your eyes wide
The chance won't come again
And don't speak too soon
For the wheel's still in spin
And there's no tellin' who
That it's namin'.
For the loser now
Will be later to win
For the times they are a-changin'.

Come senators, congressmen
Please heed the call
Don't stand in the doorway
Don't block up the hall
For he that gets hurt
Will be he who has stalled
There's a battle outside
And it is ragin'.
It'll soon shake your windows
And rattle your walls
For the times they are a-changin'.

Come mothers and fathers
Throughout the land
And don't criticize
What you can't understand
Your sons and your daughters
Are beyond your command
Your old road is
Rapidly agin'.
Please get out of the new one
If you can't lend your hand
For the times they are a-changin'.

The line it is drawn
The curse it is cast
The slow one now
Will later be fast
As the present now
Will later be past
The order is
Rapidly fadin'.
And the first one now
Will later be last
For the times they are a-changin'.

- Bob Dylan



Your children are not your children.
They are the sons and daughters of Life’s longing for itself.
They come through you but not from you,
And though they are with you, yet they belong not to you.
You may give them your love but not your thoughts.
For they have their own thoughts.
You may house their bodies but not their souls,
For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow, which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.
You may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like you.
For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday. You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth.
The archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite, and He bends you with His might that His arrows may go swift and far.
Let your bending in the archer’s hand be for gladness;
For even as he loves the arrow that flies, so He loves also the bow that is stable.

-Khalil Gibran

Semper Reformata!

From Holiness to Wholeness

From Righteousness to Nobility

From Obedience to Wisdom

From Confirmation to Affirmation

From Paternally Partonizing to Participatory Partnership

From Aid to Trade

From Systems to Sustainability

From Programs to Projects

From Credentials to Credibility

From Authoritarian Hierarchy to Collaborative Co-Creativity

From Paid Pastors to Shepherd-making Sheep.

From Education to Discovery

From Adventure to Quest

From honorable hi-jacking to Renewal and Redemption

From tuition to intuition

From disciplines to rhythms

From Elitism to Egalitarianism

From Dependence to Independence

From Independence to Interdependence

From conforming to deforming

From deforming to reforming

From One to Oneness

From Catholic to Collaborative

From Me to You

From You to Me

From Us to All

From All to Him

From Him to All

From Him to Us

From Him to You

From Him to Me

From Him to Himself

And For Him

And Because of Him

And In Him

And To Him

And without Him

Emptiness



"He was Supreme in the beginning and - leading the resurrection parade - he is supreme in the end. From beginning to end he's there, towering far above everything, everyone. So spacious is he, so roomy, that everything of God finds its proper place in him without crowding. Not only that, but all the broken and dislocated pieces of the universe - people and things, animals and atoms - get properly fixed and fit together in vibrant harmonies, all because of his death,his blood that poured down from the Cross."

- Paul the Apostle to the Colossians

Shalom dilating

"The opposite of sin is not morality, it is grace - not to cancel out or match or even one up, but to overwhelm and absorb incrementally yet not all at once either. If it were all at once, we would be overwhelmed and absorbed to the point of dangerous goodness - the destruction and demise of our own deceit and coping creations - too much, too soon for a broken human spirit that needs kind increments and dignified doses. It only waits for us, within us, around us - that fruitful economy of which our name is attached. It is unfailingly full yet pregnant with indiscovery. Its leaks break into our world, pinning down our atmosphere with dam-breaking potential, longing for the second Flood, not of death, but of life. I drag my soul to its oasis, longing for a refreshing sprinkle from the crack in the desert rock. Laying below, exhausted and saturated by the heat, only able to open and close the cracked lips of my life-leathered face to receive. At times it is sweet, at others, it is bitter. It rushes with force unspeakable and whirlpools of frightening fury, waiting, waiting for it's unleashed lavishing. Each day I lay farther and farther from the spring to comfort in its expansive shelter from the heat, and now, only now I glimpse upward. The sands of time have shifted, it has become a sheer mountain, and the crack is no crack at all. It is now a breach - a breach that longs for its day, water-falling from its overflow, a river running to and fro searching endlessly for the canyon it created to fill, to reverse, to chance its last flow - for Tomorrow the cascading caverns will fill with no one to know - only to become dark chasms deep deep below. And the whipping winds of fear, fury, shame and foe, they will not reach us from under the crushing toe. They will only froth the peaks of the waves of grace that churn and chant over us as we stare past them into space, into the heavens, and into His face. Maranatha! And until then, petition, hospitalize, sustain, create, love, un-burden, hope - and all in the name of Grace!

-Nathan (kind of)

The Lost Message of Jesus

"What is God's Kingdom like? What story can I use to explain it?...It's like a seed sown, shooting up and growing quietly" (Mark 4:30). Jesus constantly undermined the nationalistic fervour and demand for open revolt, warfare or revolution that so many Jews hankered after. There would be no violent upheavals. The Kingdom is about a quiet, social and spiritual revolution, not a bloody and political one.

But more than that it is to be a place of flourishing for the oppressed and marginalized rather than the realm of continual self-interest for the already privileged. It was ordinary, poverty-stricken (shalom denied) and oppressed Jewish people that desperately needed God to do something for them, and to do it now!

So, it is that Jesus begins his three years of teaching with the explicit declaration that the Kingdom, the inbreaking shalom of God, had finally arrived. Some might not recognize it, for its shape was different to everybody's expectations. It was different, however, not because it promised less, but rather because it delivered far more.

-Steve Chalke (pages 38-39)

"We live with the idea that the gospel's chief aim is to make us fit for heaven, when in reality Jesus' message is focused on making citizens and recipients of the Kingdom of God today...As the Victorian preacher Charles Spurgeon put it, 'A little faith will take you to heaven, but I pray for the kind of faith that will bring heaven to earth.' Authentic Christian faith isn't so much about ordering your private world as ordering the whole world...'The truth is,' he said (an African preacher who has a twist on prosperity preaching), 'the Bible doesn't preach prosperity in our narrow twenty-first century understanding of the word. But what it does teach is the shalom of God. Something that is far richer, deeper and broader than the temporary and shallow happiness that economic prosperity gives people'...Shalom, a word that appears over two hundred and fifty times in the Hebrew Scriptures, is a kaleidoscopic vision of what life is like when lived in line with God's agenda. It incorporates contentment, health, justice, liberation, fulfillment, freedom and hope...shalom is the equipping of a person so they can cope with life's suffering and sorrows while basking in the beauty and joys it brings. Shalom is about comprehensive well-being and flourishing at every level of life - socially, economically, spiritually and politically."

- Steve Chalke (Page 36-37)

A Heretic's Guide to Eternity

In this Spencer Burke's book he writes, " Art Kleiner said a 'heretic is someone who sees a truth that contradicts the conventional wisdom of the institution and remains loyal to both entities.'"

Spence himself writes on page 21, "I believe that the message of Jesus, once loosed from its religious confines, has the potential to contribute to the global yearning for the sacred and the divine. I believe that there is hope for the heretic, for God's grace is a much bigger gift than we've ever imagined."

Magic and Sunshine

With your magic
My adventure recoils
only to unfold a quest

Create, I cannot for you
Nothing speaks truth
Clear enough to you

Only satiate me
with your voice

Carry me
with your voice

It's filled
with a century's wisdom

With the tenderness
Of a newborn's coo

I would rather write
These words with my tongue

My eyes forming the lines
My hands the good inkwell

Your magic is deep
it centers me

Fear of idols
that don't understand me

And tears
that don't trust

But it's magic
because it reaches further

And I've found that
when it truly divides me

It's only returning home.

Why do I send it away?

If it's magic, it's free
And when it's free - you are home.

seasons of plee and glee

Down to the water

I brought my name

Up to the mountain

I carried my shame

But in this moment

The leaves have fallen from my tree

The fruit trodden under a season of glee.

Dependence to Interdepence and the one in between

In a conversation with Phil Nellis (www.elnellis.blogspot.com) we chatted about wanting to have our own place versus having a place to share with another family. I really began to understand that having your own place and being independent is where I'm at right now. I'm living with my aunt and uncle which is awesome and a blessing, but there is an underlying desire to move out and have my own space. I saw my sister go through this and many others. It's like we just want a place that we call the shots and that we're responsible for ultimately, without strings attached. That is the desire of a lot of people. It is not a wrong desire but after listening to Phil, who has had his own place for a long time, he longed for a bigger backyard for his son, more space for his family and their interests, a better cell signal, etc... and so they are thinking of getting a house together with another family that has the same desires. What an interesting move. I'm definitely not there but as Phil described why, it began to make sense and I agreed with the whole concept.

We finally distilled it down to a three part movement, dependence, independence and interdependence. If interdependence is the goal, there is a need then to move through these movements but at the same time, there is no need to skip them or move quickly through them. It seems that at the beginning of our lives, we do need an environment that we can depend upon someone else to substantiate and account for - some paternalism and maternalism to get us started.

Then we need a time of independence and establishing our castle walls. This seems to be a time of leaving in order to embrace one's own identity, values, boundaries, life goals and direction, etc... These things need the time and space that they require in order to be established and so there needs to be some time given to allowing that process to work out. The paternalistic and maternalistic structures that birthed the genesis of one's identity need to step back almost radically yet incrementally while the transition and overlap takes place between the two stages of dependence and independence. We need to leave the table in order to find our own table for a time, but the next transition is as important and needed - interdependence.

Moving from Independence to Interdependence is the direction that we all need to take eventually if we are to take the leap into life's dreams and goals because there are many more pieces of the puzzle than ours to fit together in order for the big picture to be seen and accomplished. This stage could well describe the idea behind mutual submission in one's spousal relationship. You bring yourself with your table to that person's self with their table and begin to fit your tables together to see if they fit, then if they do, you cut dovetail joints and glue them together and put a white table cloth overtop to form one table. This process can also take place with married couples and other married couples as Phil and Ruth are doing. They are interdependently sharing space with another family to benefit the whole experience but not in a way that loses their identity to another or challenges their values - they are seeing if their table could fit for a time with another couple's table and then they 'push' them together and put a table cloth over for a time, but not indefinitely, just a time of interdependence. It's beautiful.

I believe this process describes the history of denominationalism, countries, families, friendships, organizations, companies, etc...

Just because it has always been done a certain way, doesn't mean that it has to be done a certain way,

I heard a quote given by a Jewish Rabbi (I think) name Mordecai Kaplin - "Tradition should have a vote, but not a veto."

I like it, but what is tradition, only the living faith of the dead. So what is wrong with tradition - nothing, but traditionalism, that is, the dead faith of the living, has many problems. Let it go and move on and know you're blessed and will be blessed again.

Questions for Dependence, Independence and Interdependence:

1. What creates the need for each step?
2. What creates the need to emerge from each step?
3. How does that happen?
4. Why should it happen?

Hypocrites Unite

"You can't always practice what you preach but you can always preach what you practice."

"Unfulfilled Dreams"

"And I guess one of the great agonies of life is that we are constantly trying to finish that which is unfinishable."

-Martin Luther King Jr. (1968 in "Unfulfilled Dreams")

My favorite comforts

1. Bed

2. Bath

3. Beers (of all kinds)

4. Books

5. Babe (girlfriend that is)

Glory cannot be reduced

This is an email correspondence between a professor of mine about the relationship between God and the nations and our role in saving the world and why missions needs a more dynamic and inexhaustible view of God's glory that is not only transcendent but also...



Nathan,

Thanks for your note, especially the expression of your aspirations. It is great to love people, and don't forget that you have to have seen the glory of God since to love God, so you have to see the glory of these nations to love them.

Warmly,
Dr. VanGemeren




Dr. VanGemeren,

If I can remember, I would love to speak to you about what you just wrote. How much do we allow the dignity of Creation to be our motivation for redeeming it alongside of God as participators in the Kingdom of Heaven? Mother Theresa always served people because she literally saw them as Christ and so she was serving Christ. I don't agree with this and think that we should see the glory of creation and that God receives glory when the dignity of ourselves, others, and the creation is restored. I also believe that God made a "good" Creation but that He put us in the world and gave us the creation mandate to make the world better by spreading over the whole earth. Since we are inherently image bearers, we would spread his glory just by our presence in different sectors of the globe among other reasons. Jonathan Edwards had a view of the God-World relationship like this and having read that and some other thoughts that I have had, I sensed that the reason for the missional mandate in reaching the nations is to go and unearth the God given dignity of these nations and to let them encounter Christ in the way they are supposed to. And that when they encounter the Gospel, there will be flavors and nuances of the Gospel that will come to life that have never come to life before and it will reflect another prism of the radiance of God's glory from within that culture, language, ethnic worship expression, etc... I feel that we are only to introduce the Gospel through Scripture, service, our presence and ultimately our love and then let them encounter the Spirit and take hold of Christ, Scripture and then leave it in their hands and hearts after some time with a guiding hand for some time after but not to interfere, only to warn and give counsel. This way they will appropriate faith in YHWH in a very contextualized and unique way. Once that takes place it seems that they will begin doing theology for themselves and the flavor that their culture and language has will be infused with the Gospel and in turn bring the Gospel to life in a way that it has not before. The Gospel therefore has a reciprocal relationship to culture and people group distinctives, one that allows each to come to life more than before they encountered each other. It won't be a new teaching but the Gospel instead is a dynamic life giving message of transformation that has central teachings to its core but that as it encounters different cultures and languages that it will be unfolded more and more and we will be able to learn more of who God is through that new prism being uncovered. So ultimately, there is so much more to dynamically discover about God as He encounters different cultures and even generations as they encounter Him for the first time.

This is one way in which the glory of God is radiated from within the nations. It is in their encounter with Him and their embrace and appropriation of His Gospel. So ultimately the Gospel grows in its ability to be expressed and illuminated as it encounters different nations, tribes, people groups, etc... As "Wisdom" is a vast and complex idea/approach to life with and under God's reign that can never be exhausted, so also is the "Gospel" as an approach to redeeming all things (Col. 1:19:20) and it's definition will never be able to be reduced because it is also alive and continually dynamic as it receives its source from within the Trinity.

So when one culture encounters another culture with the Gospel the point is to call the receiving culture to encounter the Gospel with as little cultural baggage from the culture that has brought the Gospel so that the receiving culture can appropriate the Message of Scripture as succinctly and closely to their cultural/linguistic/geographical/historical/emerging/ethnic identity as possible while still maintaining that which is helpful from the culture of those who brought the Message. To impose one's own culture in any way then, is a indirect or direct denouncement of that which God has called good in Creation. I don't assume that all of culture is good, but that the core identity of each culture within a people group is good as it related being a part of the created order. We were all created the same but when God confused the languages at Babel and separated the nations, I believe that He always meant to make an array of different people groups to display his creative diversity.

Therefore culture isn't completely holy but it should be redeemed and allowed to be an expression of the God's character and desire to reveal the intricate complexity and diversity of his Self revelation to all flesh. Therefore I assume that God's glory is latent or at least truncated and unexpressed as freely as it could be as of yet in the life, language and culture of unreached people groups. As a result, when we go out on mission, we are actually going to uncover aspects of God's prismic glory as the Gospel uncovers and unleashes it in the people groups it encounters. The call of the prophet Isaiah demonstrates this in Isaiah 6 where God proclaims that His glory fills the whole earth.

I hope this makes sense. I want to write on this and it fits with what you wrote to me about seeing the glory of the nations in order to love them. That glory I believe was given to them by God so that it could be unraveled and unleashed through redeemed human connections and an encounter with the Word of God, the life of Christ and the Spirit in the life of a community. Blessings!

Blessed to be a blessing,
Nathan Smith

Returning

I’d rather eat crumbs at your table
Than feast at their plate.

When will the lost come in?
They say come before it’s too late

I’d rather beat drums of my ancestors
Than play that piano of hate

When will our hearts break for them?
They say it has to be their fate.

We’re all hungry for world peace
But they’d rather hold onto the pie
Instead of just their own piece.

I see brokenness everywhere
The stench of a painful wound that’s bare
I see beauty in somebody else’s hair
But beauty is not plenty enough to share.

I’d rather eat crumbs at your table
Than feast at their plate of fable

When will the lost come in?
“I wish we’d all been ready”
Sounds more like a manipulation

I want to go down with this ship
I’m not the captain but you created it
It’s a lie to think that we can leave
Just because we’re regenerate

When will our hearts break for the breaking of it?
Because mountains are hearing the voice of the eagle returning

The sand hears the stream that’s yearning
The well has the wealth of a sky’s sharp burning

And they say that’s it a good time
Because the eagles, they’re returning

I’d rather eat the crumbs from your table
Than feast at the plate of our fable
Because the eagles they’re returning

Written by Nathan (sort of)

explanacion

Greetings to readers!

My latest posts have been heavy as a friend has pointed out and though my friend doesn't think that it's wrong to write, my friend did say that I should write something a little more lighter next time. I don't think about how light or heavy the stuff I write is - I just have been writing from my heart lately and even though it may not be agreeable to some, I'm figuring it all out. I only ask that you do not be patient with me, patronize me or pass it off as a rebellious phase that never got to grow up. If any of those are true or needed, it will become clear eventually. I am committed to following a man who used cynicism with harshness and abusive language, loving language and kindness with truth and it was all with a profound wisdom that knew there was a time for everything under the sun. More than anything else it was his words that got him nailed to the cross. I don't ever want to project my image of Christ as having more to do with me than actually who he is, but as we all do at times, I know I have and I know I will. It's part of our identification with him and is a necessary process in order to find the true Christ and our true selves. John Calvin said in the introduction to his Institutes, that as we discover who God is, we discover ourselves and vice versa - the two cannot be separated - they happen organically together at the same time. So as I search my self out and find out who this guy is through the years and search out the person of the Trinity, Christ will help me see more of who I really am and who He is. That's a messy process but I'd rather get as far along in the process and deal with the mess openly than hide it than follow a worn path of security that leads in circles around myself. I want to break trail and take each step onto the soil of my soul, soil that has never been traversed or touched and yet has an anxious longing groan to be discovered, waiting for me to be revealed to me and to the world.

That's a metaphor but with where I feel like God is taking me, I can't know where it will be next, therefore metaphors help me explain something I don't know much about, but it is more real to me than most things are. I just know that I need to leave a lot of where I came from to find it and like a man who searches - his first home is never really his home anymore - he needs to make a new home.

I will write lightly at times, but it will never be forced or from pressure on the outside or inside. I am writing...and will continue to do so. If what I write resonates with you, please be careful with how resonation raptures the conscience with the soul at times, but it's your soul and your conscience, no one elses. If what I write offends you, there are a lot of blogs out there but if you don't mind the offense, please write to me and let me know why, but only if you truly want to hear back from me. If you'd rather just unload upon me - I understand - but one person can't absorb that much anger - spread it out, see a counselor (I do, it's pretty helpful), talk to your friends, write a book, but please don't unload on one person - we're not made with the constitution to absorb that much - only Christ is.

Thank you for your visit and please come again - but please know that this isn't a McBlog - It isn't a franchise and there's very little predictability, though there is nothing wrong with ritual, tradition and fixed expectations as long as they bow out to what they can't account for or control, not bow down to, just bow out to. The stage belongs to the world.

Sincerely and sorrowfully,
Nathan Smith

To take a knee (careful this one has bad words and images in it)

When asked by a very smart and moral theologian what I believe and how I can back it up, I said,


“I claim the 5th and ignorance - except that stupid people are really intelligence masked behind the carnival mirror of innocence and the projection screen of Naivetéwood - the place where dreams come true, magic is made and the little man can become the big man only to realize that those dreams and that magic are really just stupid and that “I didn’t know [hm, hm, hm] would be so small” and “being big doesn’t matter” – because “that’s what she said...”

Big pimpin,’
Nathancito

p.s. because what the world needs now is love, loads of it, craploads of it and we think we is dah only ones who can get it, give it and then own it because we is it?.... It is really weird when a human puts the #@$& from a bull in their mouth and then like wants you to ignore the smell and just put a close pin on your nose while they sling their feces of faith on your face and on your clothes - like you wanted to be there to begin with. Somebody hand me a napkin and give that dude a breath mint... oh crap, I was speaking metaphors and forgot to remember that we all need to carry napkins and breath mints, so pick your favorite flavor because you got it for life, just ask your wife and don’t forget to listen to what “she said.”

Remember that it’s not really size of the rudder but the motion in the ocean that gets the boat to the udder side. So when He says "let's go to the other side", He really means, "wake me up when we get there." So I guess we don’t really need “bigger” people – just more people who love big, no matter how big you is. That’s what she said – mother Theresa that is, but she said it because He said it – Jesus that is, oh we of little faith. Some say "Go big or go home," but Jesus says, "go big until I bring you home and don't worry, I ain't really sleepin'."

WWJD – tell you to take the #@&$ out of your mouth, make some fuel for your foreign friends without faces. Feces can actually be useful when it doesn’t come out of my mouth or your mouth – it’s disgusting to picture that but it’s even more disgusting that it’s true, but you're right, I have no right to hate the playa or the game, I just want us to stop playing games. Sorry for the obvious digression – it just helps me to recognize our oblivious oppression and as Jay-z pleads, “Lord, forgive me for my brash delivery, but I remember vividly what these streets did to me, so picture me, let these clowns knitpick at me, paint me like a picaney...” – what’s a pickaney, I don’t know, but I do know that when we all confess and finally take a knee, the top of your head will be level with everybody as well as me, and everybody means everybody – not just eazin'-jello-coal Christianity. Please, quit acting like the referee, it's time to take a knee, look up and see that the only one left standing is the Coach.


written by Nathan (sort of)



“The Best way to waste your life... is by taking notes. The easiest way to avoid living is to just watch. Look for details. Report.. Don’t participate...”
-Chuck Palahniuk

“The neurosis in which the search for safety takes its clearest form is in the compulsive-obsessive neurosis. Compulsive-obsessive to frantically order and stabilize the world so that no unmanageable, unexpected or unfamiliar dangers will ever appear.”
-Abraham Maslow

“I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love.”
-mother Theresa

"Right, birds can fly so high and they can #$%@ on your head, yeah, they can almost fly into your eye and make you feel so scared but when you look at them and you see that they’re beautiful, that’s how I feel about you."
-Kate Nash

“They may forget what you said, but they will never forget how you made them feel.”
-Carl W. Buechner

“What you perceive, your observations, feelings, interpretations, are all your truth. Your truth is important. Yet it is not the Truth.”
-Linda Ellinor

"What you have done unto the least of these, you have done it unto me!"
-Jesus

What is it like to follow Jesus - part 3?

Now the tax collectors

(back-stabbing SOB's - so cold-hearted. They'd foreclose on a widow with 10 kids and make her live on the street and then hire her as a prostitute just a week later.)

and the sinners

(filth of society, prostitutes, trashy, homos, transvestites, porn stars, the porn industry - you know - those people - at least they're honest at how filthy they really are.)

were all gathering around to hear him.


But the Pharisees and the teachers of the law muttered,

(such proper men who have such good morals. The opposite of sin is morals and they want to purify our society. We need moral police don't we? If we follow them then we will have a better life won't we? We should learn from them and meet with them to find out what's next for us. They are wonderful men)

"This man welcomes sinners and eats with them."

(Jesus would rather spend time with sinners and tax collectors than with the Pharisees and teachers of the law - that's weird - well at least I don't have to do that - like I always say, "I’d rather spend time with a wicked righteous person than a righteous wicked person")

Luke 15:1-2

What is it like to follow Jesus - part 2?

"The Spirit of the Lord is on me
because he has anointed me
to preach good news to the poor.
He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners
and recovery of sight for the blind,
to release the oppressed,
to proclaim the year of the Lord's favor

-Jesus

What is it like to follow Jesus?

Defend the cause of the weak and fatherless;

(provide security)

maintain the rights of the poor and oppressed.

(govern and judge rightly and with equity)

Rescue the weak and needy;

(intervention)

deliver them from the hand of the wicked.

(redeem freedom's cause)



Psalm 82:3-4

To follow Jesus...

"There is more absence of God that the saints experience than presence."

- Dr. VanGemeren

For whom the Pendulum swings - an Overdue Underduck

There are many pendulums swinging at the same time. Some swing farther than others and take much longer to return from their climb. Some are louder than others and make more noise. History is the swing of the pendulum and the spiral of the conundrum and it’s not written by he who has the most toys. It is a complex ongoing system of swinging and spiraling upward, backward, forward and downward. This process looks more like the movements within a matrix and spectrums of light dancing on the walls from a crystal hung in the window.

Life moves forward but much like change it can move two steps forward but one step back, three steps forward then four steps back, then 3 steps forward and 1 step back – but it is always continuously moving forward like a sanctification scale. There are many pendulum swings and the emergent Church corrective is one long overdue underduck that’s been swinging one direction for too long. Some have tried (Rauschenbusch, Gutierrez and others) to bring it back the other way, but they got over hauled and over stepped and maybe stepped on in their day. Maybe now their corrective efforts can be attained but still within the vision of Jesus Christ having lordship in the external and internal world, on the noumenal and the phenomenal planes of reality, in the hearts of humanity as well as in their lives, relationships, social contexts, ethnicities, languages and everywhere that God has planned for redemption to reach.

So pick a pendulum or two and swing, maybe subversively, maybe subserviently, maybe as a sage, maybe submissively and maybe all of them or none at all but maybe in your own way.

Only remember to listen, learn, laugh a lot and discern. Enjoy the highs and lows, but be committed to Christ at every level and in every conversation know that you carry a shovel.

Commit yourself to Christ more than you are committed to your ideals, your community, your tradition, your theology, your context and condition, even to your holy Writ which is really your interpretation of it, and let the ride take you higher than you’ve gone before with people you’ve never ridden with, people who may not share your core and as the pendulum swings as in the days of yore, consider the lilies and that one day you’ll see clearly what’s been in store - in the place and time where we won’t strive, cry or toil anymore. These pendulums will be history when we finally reach that Pilgrim shore so remember not to forget that we are not masters of the swing – the pendulum is not our chore.

God in His sovereignty is the same today as He was yesterday – the pendulum doesn’t move Zion’s mountain or lock the Temple door. So please, will you lay down your quill, come shake my hand, and with an Overdue Underduck, we'll swing into forevermore.

Written by Nathan Smith (kind of)

Well done my good and faithful Servant!

In the early days of Canada – the goal was to get to the Western shore and make it a country from shore to shore. This would give Canada sovereignty between two oceans. They compromised though on the Westcoast with the trading company by breaking their own laws to establish coast to coast sovereignty in diminishing the size of the tracts of land that they gave the Native people in order to appease the trading company that owned that portion of the new world and had their vested interest there. The tracts of land in the east are much larger because the government followed their own laws but the farther west they got – the lesser importance to virtue, law and ethics was important because they wanted to gain sovereignty – God never diminishes Creation's dignity and value in order to gain sovereignty - He does so by giving sacrificially even to the point of giving His Son and by tearing the Trinity apart. The early settlers ignored this aspect of God to the degree that they ignored the whole person and dignity of the Native community and tore their dignity to pieces instead of what God tears - Himself. All of this -to gain “manifest destiny’s” destiny, but nobody wants to hear that.


They paved over the ancient paths and erected the “civilized” secure barns of gratuity over the “savage” sacred burial grounds ( the wealthy man in the parable who builds barns and then eats and drinks and is merry)– all for greed, pride and power. They didn’t want Russia, the US or anyone else to get it so they cut a deal that compromised their very laws in order to get the west coast under the banner of that flag with a red maple leaf and red bars – in some ways it might as well be drenched in blood for the color we call red, but nobody wants to hear that.

I grew up in that part of Canada with the Indians and my house was situated 300 ft above the river that was used to discover the west coast – the Fraser River. Little did I realize that the canoes that passed my home hundreds of years ago with my ancestors in them would spurn a genocide of land grabbing and the destructive forces that ripped dignity and identity from a chosen people. I didn’t choose to exist in a day where others like me would forget that and live as if it had never happened, but sovereignly I was put there. Will we all enjoy the benefits of our ancestor’s efficient business transactions and continue to own land that was stolen, maybe we thought they would foreclose anyways. Land that cries out like the Creation groans and the cry that is as fresh as the blood of Abel which still flows and forms wet clay under our feet from the sacred dirt we callous with our imperial shoes – unable to know that it’s still wet with blood and to trod the injustice under our feet and at the same time – right under our nose. We get mad at the mud from the dirt and the blood that we carry into our homes. Then Mr. Clean sparkles our domesticated heart-wood floors. We look for the sun to the east from our western, heartless but "necessary" chores, longing for more settlers with warm words - only to comfort and assail our conscience with good news from other shores.


Were we called to follow a Savior that crushes the clod - or the head of a serpent? Were we called not to suffer at our own expense and our own dignity if we chose to follow a limping Savior from a Serpent’s snare?

It’s too political they say –
I wonder if Yahweh applauds that
and also turns his eyes away?

“It’s too far removed from us they say, it’s not our responsibility – that was our forefathers – why should we have to concern ourselves with what they did wrong? Don’t the Indians (post-savages) have a better life now anyway – now that we’re here?”

Ohhh, if we could only read the Holy Writ again and see that God favors a people who know oppression and not the privilege of a lawmaker's pen. Privilege gained by oppression has a price – and though you spend all day in the store stealing, the sun will go down and disappear and closing time will arrive, anticipating the dawn. At that point – you still have to walk out the door with what is hidden in your pockets – now is the time to put it back upon the shelf and realize that you’ve have been recorded – your every move. Will you seek forgiveness only and empty your pockets at the door or will you Restock redemptively and breathe the very air of forgiveness today while it is still called today – some by the skin of their teeth and others not – who will you be at the door?

The sovereignty of God doesn’t require us to ignore and override the “other” – it actually calls us to the "other" because the “other” represents a portion of God’s desire to reveal Himself to us. If we ignore the “other” we are ignoring an aspect of God. If we assume superiority or sovereignty and ignorance over the "other" we are doing that to a royal and sovereign God. “Do unto the least of these and you will do it unto me.” If we override them – we get what we want but we have to realize openly that we have been rapacious in the process, that we have been fallacious and carelessly uncautious - that we have raped royalty – that we are rapists. If we can be okay with that – then march on, if not then sit down and listen and wait, weep and wander around in your heart, mind and life story – ask myself and yourself, and ourselves what it would be like to live life rightly instead of efficiently, to be gracious and gratuitous, to be graced royally, to be gracists and not racists. Efficiency is not wrong but we do use it as a virtue when it’s actually an excuse? And though our lives soar upward in success, our hearts plummet to the earth awaiting sure death, but we dont' want to hear that breath breathe those words - deathhhh

Is there hope? Yes, but hope can only have it’s proper and effectual power when it can rise up against its enemy. Our hearts and lives are called to then embrace that reality so that hope has a clear voice against the noise that booms in our ears that resonates in our eyesight - though at one time it was not seen, not heard, and not a bother, and only now we have heard, only now we have seen. Awaken, listen, search the pockets of your soul for what your life has stolen and then ask yourself - who you will be at the door?

Written by Nathan Smith (kind of)

A passive aggressive postmodern - Part 2 (a cynics rant?)

Just because I’m not becoming you
Doesn’t mean that you can’t help me become me.
Hey modernity – it ain’t easy being postmodernity.

Hey modernity – maybe implicity I’m angry in my verbage to thee
and that anger in my heart now written, might to seem to be for my mommy and daddy

True or not,I guess is that wrong for me?
And when did you start liking psychology?

But you formed them after they created you
What should I do with a parent that doesn’t want to be reformed
By the misunderstood people that they created too?

Modernity, we’re no longer just ideas
Postmodernity is now an identity

Hey Modernity - why not ask Somebody else what’s going on
Instead of telling us “there’s nothing new under the sun”

I guess Aristotle understood the theory of relativity
And that our forefathers really did need slaves

Should I defer to that which doesn’t see me as different
Or to that which may hear my logos but not its pathos?

I may sound angry and it’s because I am
But my emotions don’t belong in a closed system

You may not be able to control them
but could they have been predicted?

Hey Modernity – thanks for listening…

Hey Modernity

“Hey modernity – please get over yourself
And help me find myself”

“Hey modernity – you’re cool
But I don’t want to be you”

Hey modernity – I don’t need a crossing guard anymore
But I may need a guide up this treacherous mountain called life

Hey modernity – what you created was great
But I want something better – is that wrong?

Hey modernity – I don’t need anymore mature or moral supeer-irority
How about making it a priority to be a mature mentor, a seasoned peer?

Hey modernity – feeding your mind behind your unfolded daily dose of black and white reality is splendid
But reality for me is on a dynamic multi-colored screen that can have a mind of its own.

Hey modernity – I need you but don’t you need me?
Why are you yelling when you teach instead of crying?

Hey modernity – please don’t rip on my ripped jeans
I know you don’t understand but I bought them that way

Hey modernity – if you yell at me, you might lose your voice
If you give me apathy, I might turn to my toys.
If you scorn me, all I might hear is noise
If you detach from me, doesn’t that take away my choice?

Do you want a voice that isn’t noise that gives me a choice instead of my toys
Listen in, come on in, but please knock on the door
I don’t want you to be me – but will you be with me - where I'm at?

Will you read this unmetered poem
And wonder why I don't always bother to rhyme
Or dismiss my rebellious adolescence and wait until I become sublime?

(sublime = of high moral or intellectual value; elevated in nature or style; "an exalted ideal")

I need you to be you
I want you to be you
But I will never be you.

Hey modernity - I'm postmodern
I guess that means that I'm post-you
Ten years ago I never thought I would post about being "post"
Did you?


-Nathan Smith (kind of)